First page of 2017

Ended my 2016 and start my 2017 with oncall

such a unlucky oncall that i have to go back hospital to supply DD while i have to meet up with someone

knocked my head during the first time off to sibu

2nd oncall after switch with collegues come out with some shit to handle

i forget how many times i dy oncall since i report duty on 3/12

every worst things come together

feel like such a suck 2017

nevertheless after 2017 CNY nothing change better

first day cut my hand and the knife was broken 

everything just not smooth until i dun feel like go out to bai nian

total only went 7 houses this year in this four days

start using up my brain on the first day of CNY dy

totally no CNY mood

be a part time doctor to someone continuously for few days

start working although i on leave

such a sigh!

ps: dun ask me why i dun have Bf or did i hv BF

that is my business, if got u ppl will complaint of him if dun hv ntg to compliant that the best right?

就算有也不会告诉你们

i just use 10 minutes to summarise up my first month of 2017 while typing out the stupid spub list!

life as a floater

The most wonderful life in my working previous,
definite what is floater?
life after prp and before frp
where i dun hv any responsible and homework or assessment
living with work, sleep and eat only
spending my first month of floater time with holiday and travel
went to penang and langkawi with family, going back home eat chicken soup
that kind of life is what i enjoy the most
after working for one year
yup, working for one year ady
and i'm a working adult now
but a poor one
i just remember i never give parent money as what my bro did
where my money gone every month?
and i know now....
shopping and eat
today is my first time alone go to a mall in kuching
my first time step in plaza merdeka
a high class mall with all the branded branch
shop like a boss,
bought a pair of nike shoes.. the most expensive i bought so far
my heart not feel pain cause i keep telling myself
buying things tat you like can make you happy just did it
the third pair of new shoes after submitting my logbook
and i never wear one of it
i just like to keep things but not money
having a luxious lunch at sakae sushi
but cant fulfil my taste
that salmon is so different form nz one
my first pair of sport pants to end my shopping in plaza merdeka
happy malaysia day

till now havent watch train to busan
the moment i want to find someone accompany me
i find no one
life of alone for one year
hoping to get my posting at sarikei then at least got parents to go shopping with me
is not easy to get a good friend in the adult life

not even about a bf although a lot is available there
不是我挑但最基本的条件必有
got money but selfish out
got money but not educated out
no money but kedekut out
got money but no handsome out
i just need someone that not necessary gt money but at least salary not lower than me and caring
姐不要小白脸

一年后

超过一年没更新了
昨天与今天想了很多
哭了几次
在机上看到做在旁边的乘客给接机的亲戚打电话
让我想起了之前的自己

曾经的我离开家远远的
现在仍然一个人在遥远的地方
一年的 PRP， 终于挨完了
担心着 FRP posting，不想再一个人过接下来的三四年了

这一年里
一个人过着
变得不爱说话
对外界排斥了许多
不再相信任何人
不再用心交朋友
信心滑落
更感性
会轻易的掉眼泪

ps: 不要怪我如果不理会你，
姐只想静静

未知数的倒数

正当每个人都羡慕着我在放长假时
我真的很想开工
话说应该不是开工是离开这个地方

这个鸟不生蛋的地方就是泗里街，那个没人性的地方和那个不想呆的家

每天被逼着做自己不喜欢做的事
做什么事都被盯着
穿什么衣都说
失去生活的意义

每天看人脸色活
一天到晚走后门
给面子

试问谁给我面子？

我真的那么闲空吗？、
这个那个都叫我帮
什么都得做都得管
 公会的事一次又一次叫我做，从写稿，写新闻，襟花，做布条。。。。。。要不要主席秘书通通我做？
一句话：多管闲事

我的愤怒指数爆表了
这一刻只想离开
 去一个没认识人的城市
死也不要死在泗里街

看到这封的朋友帮个忙
如果我死了 （因为我梦到我快死了）
请让我客死异乡，把我的骨灰撒在新西兰的任何一个海或湖都行
谢了
 

Summarising 2014

2014 gonna end in a few hours time
spending my last few hours of 2014 to recalled what i did throughout the year
I am thankful that i still alive today and get my Bpharm degree after 4 years!

January
worked as a cherry sorting girl in a pack house

February
celebrated 'yuan xiao jie" with friends at Titan street

March
choosing my elective groupmate and title which help me discover who is my real friends
celebrated my last birthday in NZ

April

spending my ester break in elective study -my lovely polymorphic and end up didnt use the info at all

May

study for my final where i know how selfish can one ppl be
try stay late in lib and get to know one wechat friend that cheer me up, sorry cant install my wechat back and said good bye to u

June

everyone is busy with the placement and i chose to go wellington not because of u, just because i hvnt been there.. ppl keep saying i was there because of u, but i know what i did

July

the most busy month until no time celebrate friends birthday! i think i m just busy with my elective again, my dear metformin

August
 months with assignments and test but i spending my last few days of the month at queenstown!
Skiing for the first time and i know i am still so "dan xiao"

september
months of ball ~ pharm ball and the first OMSA ball

october
the last final exam in my uni life and oso the first time of symposium=> presentation in front of the class of 150++ students and lecturers

November

planning my graduation trips and also worrying my results, i know i can be fail easily if i not study hard but even i had try my best i still not confident that i will pass it! thankful that i pass and graduated

December
graduation months and months of sadness that i need to leave NZ

well, that just my general annual report..lolxx

Ps: 2014  u brought me lots of tears and smile
just feel unfair when u are spending lots of time to help others but end up u didnt manage do what u need to do,  but well that is life right.. just hope people not try to blaming all the time for not informing u some news. who will know u dunno? pls be responsible to urself and it is not my responsible to help and tell u...I am tired as welll

wishes for 2015,
Healthy and happy
getting my posting at the hospital that i want
meting friends that are really appreciate my help and helping me when i need help
GOOD LUCK Bernice Leong!
"shou fang kai"

毕业前的收官之旅！

这一次真的说走就走了

重点是去我不曾去过的 invercargill, bluff 和部分的catlins

还记得那天，星期四的中午 难得早起的一天

收到了郭大人的whatapps , u want go invercargill

还以为他开玩笑。。。。

大约一个钟后我终于答应和他， Sofia 一起 （三人行）

在明早出发。。。

话说Sofia 刚与两天前从invercargill 回来

现在又得重当我们的 driver 

感激不尽

一路上吃着Friday bakery，照片在大人的instagram里download不到 T.T
skip 了午餐 一路沿catlins 的路走走停停
在 balchuta I site 拿了地图 ，经过那就停那
第一站 应该是 NIAGARA FALL， 最小的瀑布
我们没去到因为路在维修？？
到后来 去了curio bay，撑着伞走海边
是否感觉很浪漫？

                                                              360 度 view，不好意识看到我了

                                                     不小心碰到大人的 Ass ...LOL
之后去了slopepoint

                                         被刺人草刺了好多下才拍成的合照

                                                          the most southern point in nz

 
                                                        他说ursfie 他很丑                                       

                                                     就补一张他chok 爆的吧

Catlins 最后第二站 ， Waipapa point
再一次看到了seal，就是沒看都 dolphin

就是這只嚇死我的 seal

 

送你兩拳

Catlins 之旅就來到終站，不知名海邊

                                                     
                                                        美吧？


雨下的很大，急忙往 Bluff 出發
我們幾個路痴差點迷路，
GPS 有點不可靠 還好選對的路
一路上想吃 Fish and Chips，KFC
都快六點我們都沒吃午餐
找了最出名的 地方吃 Osyter ，menu 都選好了
到時餐廳關了
如大人所願 我們吃了Fish and Chips
Paua fritter，chickencurryriceroll， mussle fritter ，bluecod， 3 SCOOP OF CHIPS
回到房間裡大吃了起來
還沒吃一半我們好像都飽了
去看日落，可這樣的天氣太陽都看不到日落那會全在

                                                          Stirling point 是 Bluff 必去之地

                                     Habour <wish have a key chain to lock our friendship till forever>

Cannot go up Bluff Hill due to strong wind warning
so after breakfast we leave bluff to invercargill
strong wind blow opposite with our direction,
our driver, sofia has to control the sterling well throughout the way

Reached Invercargill at 11.00 am
first place is a proper meal, Bombay Place
as still rainning we choose to eat first but u know how unlucky we are
It only open at 12 pm and we had paid the parking fee
What to do?
Go find a shade first therefore our first attraction in invercargill is st mary church

               
                                                   幫女人拍照真難要捉緊沒風那一刻

                                                 還以為這就是 Queenpark

 

 好像吵架了，說真的認識他四年了我們都沒吵過架

BombayPlace 的 chicken tikka

 

Don street Umbrella

 

Water tower， 那時的風大的連站都是問題

                                                       這才是 Queen park

 

一拍好大人說 I also want, 我倆嚇呆了然後笑個不停

                                                   真想坐下去，可爛泥一團

無論多不捨還是得離開
Starbuck 之後回 Dunedin

Photo tell the story

                                                          謝謝你們給我的愉快之旅

                                                


感言：

美好的一刻總是短暫
我會記得這兩天一夜的
雖是第一次跟Sofia 去旅行
我們好像有一種默契

願我們都一起畢業
Macau 見 ，Sofia

                                                        

离开前的感触

这一刻坐在电脑前想了好多好多

连续几天午觉都睡不着，

赖着望着秒针一直在转。。。

害怕离别更害怕以后再也见不到

努力的收藏着我们的记忆

当中有着我们的欢笑，有着我们的惆怅

少了的是那背后的故事

离大考还有九天，我还在发呆

呆呆的想着不可能的事

何时才能从梦里醒来面对事实

爸爸看完了感觉没有活着的劲

也不想为了满足你而活着

因为你不会为了我而活着

我该为我自己而活着正如你似

曾多少次尝试忘记你 

block 了你，不上网

就为了不想和你联系

不想只活在只有你的影子下

因为以后的日子都不会再有你

希望先说再见的人会是我， 不再见!