skip lecture day

今天的我过的很痛苦，

一整晚没好好睡到。。。

鼻涕一直流使到我什么都做不到，

不能去上课。。。可悲

饿到要死都没东西吃，

 因为头咙又痛了。。。。。。。。。

OMG

tomorrow  exam ady, i still havent finish the lecture slide..

everyday sleep and doing nothings in my room...

i feel so guilty but  they keep say i'm sick ma so no mood to study..

i find out that is a bad excuse for me lo..

even last time i sick like hell still study..

juz feel so sad and guilty because of the sick..

sick since last friday till now . almost one week ady

but never recover,

after one  illness going better , the others come ... so sienz with my sickness..

this is my second time sick in NZ within three month..

1st sick also almost the same like this times..

juz duno why last time i sick i still in good mood and  got energy to go lecture..

actually i think i know why..

...............................

suddenly miss u ......ur support and advice help me a lots

i think i rely on u  too much before..我对你的爱陷的太深了。。。也太久了！！！！

haiz, what to do, u didnt do what u promise.. what a sad things to me...

... Is there a delete button in my programming to delete people from my life that I don't want to know anymore?

你为什么要出现在我的人生里？？？？？？？

"don't cry for a guy, let a guy cry for you because girls give and forgive, and guys get and forget" 

always telling myself to stay strong in physically and mentally..

but i cant make it.. 

the freaking english test and the illness that i  had but i keep secret without telling my  parents make me wana cry again.. and again......

i burning my parents money like i burning recylced paper..

what i good things i had did...

觉得自己很没有用。。。

result not good, but lazy to study,

only know how to spend money but not earn any money before..

what am i dong now? everyone go lecture but i'm update my blog...

so in conclusion i'm so useless..

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG,,,,, leong fei lin ar,,, u are so stupid ......................

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1