Friday, September 16

life as a floater

The most wonderful life in my working previous,
definite what is floater?
life after prp and before frp
where i dun hv any responsible and homework or assessment
living with work, sleep and eat only
spending my first month of floater time with holiday and travel
went to penang and langkawi with family, going back home eat chicken soup
that kind of life is what i enjoy the most
after working for one year
yup, working for one year ady
and i'm a working adult now
but a poor one
i just remember i never give parent money as what my bro did
where my money gone every month?
and i know now....
shopping and eat
today is my first time alone go to a mall in kuching
my first time step in plaza merdeka
a high class mall with all the branded branch
shop like a boss,
bought a pair of nike shoes.. the most expensive i bought so far
my heart not feel pain cause i keep telling myself
buying things tat you like can make you happy just did it
the third pair of new shoes after submitting my logbook
and i never wear one of it
i just like to keep things but not money
having a luxious lunch at sakae sushi
but cant fulfil my taste
that salmon is so different form nz one
my first pair of sport pants to end my shopping in plaza merdeka
happy malaysia day

till now havent watch train to busan
the moment i want to find someone accompany me
i find no one
life of alone for one year
hoping to get my posting at sarikei then at least got parents to go shopping with me
is not easy to get a good friend in the adult life

not even about a bf although a lot is available there
不是我挑但最基本的条件必有
got money but selfish out
got money but not educated out
no money but kedekut out
got money but no handsome out
i just need someone that not necessary gt money but at least salary not lower than me and caring
姐不要小白脸

Sunday, August 14

一年后

超过一年没更新了
昨天与今天想了很多
哭了几次
在机上看到做在旁边的乘客给接机的亲戚打电话
让我想起了之前的自己

曾经的我离开家远远的
现在仍然一个人在遥远的地方
一年的 PRP, 终于挨完了
担心着 FRP posting,不想再一个人过接下来的三四年了

这一年里
一个人过着
变得不爱说话
对外界排斥了许多
不再相信任何人
不再用心交朋友
信心滑落
更感性
会轻易的掉眼泪

ps: 不要怪我如果不理会你,
姐只想静静